the note on my door...

to whoever:
i'm tired... Could i just lie down and not have you disturb me for a good 3 days?

thanks eh...

Dear God...

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away.
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again...

I wrote this piece a coupla months ago. Again, just in case I run into any other unnecessary unpleasantries, this has got nothing to do with anyone.

Heartstrings

How do I say this?
My mind keep playing games
Pictures of you running in my head
Scenes of us racing through the memories

It was barbs laced with honey
Sweet but sucked the life out of me
You walked out with my soul
Where should I go to find the me of old?

Listening to songs
The times we would hum it out loud
Watching TV through the phone
And pleasant wakeup calls on Saturday mornings.

I couldn’t give you enough
But I’m sure I did my part
I hope he makes you laugh
The laugh I adore and love

Ok... I am officially starting to break down resulting from the endless hours of being at work so as for this long-awaited update, there will be no update. Hehe...

But in its place is something I haven't done in quite a while...

For you, and me

It’s just twisted how this is
Life just brought you in with its tides and waves
Uninvited but not unwelcomed
Unceremonious but not unbecoming

Don’t push me away,
If there’s no need for me to leave.
Tell me your troubles
Share me your pain.

How do I tell you this?
How do I make you understand?
Do I have to get down on my knees?
Just to prove just what I am.

You be my arrow,
I’ll be your bow
I’ll even find that pot of gold
At the end of the rainbow

Look me in the eyes
Tell me you see lies
Or hopeless hope
Leaving you in dire

How do I tell you this?
How do I make you understand?
Do I have to get down on my knees?
Just to show you how in love with you I am…

-Imran

tippy toes

Thank god Mira finally uploaded these much awaited pics.. It was that one night I went karaoke-ing with Mir, Lia and my brother, Farhan. Twas a lota fun. Abeh look like power rangers.
huak huak...



Ade macam boy/girl band eh?

Anyways boys and girls, seriously, honestly, really, life is for me is very the plateau-icly mundane. Emotionally still. Somehow I am thankful for the absence of a huge-ass, life-sized roller coaster sequence of events in my life. But then, life has really taken a decelerating notion after mid this year. Thank God for Fatin and Mir for adding the much needed spice when i do really need the most. I love you both, in different ways, of course. Heh...

Being true to myself, a person of random topics, i think my body is breaking down.

The odd and really long hours of being at work. Non-stop chaotic amounts of cars. Its really taken a toll on me. I mean, is it really worth it just for a measly amount of just over $1700? I know, benda yang halal tu tk selalu didapati dgn mudah, but sometimes i think this is too painstaking. I am a personal fan of the saying, when the going gets tough, the tough fucks off, but here I am typing this down as though it is a losing fight, a needless struggle, a waste of time ultimately. But i refuse to give up. Not with the support I have around me.

Life will hit you. You and I know that when it hits you, boy it hits you hard. Real hard. But what makes you a man is how you pick yourself up when you're already down and move forward. How you keep picking yourself up when life throws shit onto you. Pick yourself up and move forward. Pick yourself up and move forward. Rather than have me look at you slumber into what slump life decides to live you in. Cos when that happens, no point pointing fingers at anyone or anything, because the blames on you, kid.

and another one

bak kata pepatah pussy cat dolls, don't you wish your boyfren hensem like me...

huak huak...
*bored*

King Nothing

I wish I may
I wish I might
Have this wish I wish tonight
I want that star
I want it now
I want it all and I don't care how

Careful what you wish
Careful what you say
Careful what you wish
You may regret it
Careful what you wish
You just might get it

Then it all crashes down
And you break your crown
And you point your finger
But there's no one around

Just want one thing
Just to play the king
But the castle's crumbled
And you're left with just a name

Where's your crown, King Nothing?

Rexall

I'm running out of room
Don't make me say it
There is nothing left in me
Don't make me
Too much for hotel rooms
Don't make me say it
Sleeping pills don't make me

There is no love left in your eyes
There is love between your thighs
Roll over say goodnight
A morning dog howl in the street
Cup filled tiny hands and feet
Napkin in the drain

There is no love left in your eyes
There is love between your thighs
Roll over say goodnight
I've had enough of feeling sick
You've had enough of feeling sick
The sugar never helps

There is no love left in your eyes
There is love between your thighs

Taulah tempat ni sibuk, Tapi takmo jadi asshole uh!

Yeah, and so, between the Hari Raya post and the previous one, nothing much happened. It has been, in no particular order, work, Fatin, Mira, family, friends, home, sleep.

And so we jump to the few days before Raya...

As so all of you know, I work as a key personnel for a stevedoring company at Pasir Panjang. Being part of that company enables me to, err... jamah-jamah the new cars that come to Singapore for local shipment or transshipment. Well, of all the cars that I've driven so far... This must be the icing on th cake. The Audi R8. Really, a piece of art...

Huak Huak! Yeah yeah... Big deal?! Bluegh!.... Well, whatever bitch!

Anyways, the fewest days before Raya, I went all the way to Woodlands to accompany Fatin to satisfy her ever-burning-since-when desire to rebond her hair. The lady who did her hair looked like the cookie monster from Sesame Street. Even her I'm-not-smiling-or-frowning look was terrifying. Mak oi! Cam nak makan orang siol...

Fatin sometime before

Fatin during the rebonding
*KAKAK MUKE TAKYA CRAMP UH!!*

Fatin Sayang after the whole thing
PS: Thats the lady i was talking about... Eee... Scary..

Bak kate pepatah Ice Cube, makan mee soto takde ayam, tak sedap.

Hello world!!

OMG! Its raya already... Sorry for the late updates.

Anyways, to all readers, muslim or not, SELAMAT HARI RAYA. Maaf zahir batin. Kalau ade silap salah, terkasar bahasa dalam hidup yang singkat ini, tolong maafkanlah.

In Imran's english, it sounds like this...
HAPPY HARI RAYA! Sorry inside out. If i did anything wrong or if got say anything wrong accidentally in this short life, please the very sorry.

Anyways, eidul-fitr was a quiet affair. After morning prayers, I went straight back to sleep. Only start to jln2. Soon after at around 8.30 pm I had to leave the convoy to go to work. Sad right? Anyways i shot pictures with my handphone and camera but I can't get to the camera as of right
now...

Baby sister & I




Smallest cousin in the family & I

Farhan, Fakhrurazi, Haziq



Simaa & Nabilah

The younger brother, Firdaus

The makciks berceloteh

Haha... Hope your eidul-fitr went smooth... g'day!

Sorry for the lack of updates people...
Been busy at work and now I am down with really sore and swelling eyes that Fatin Sayang is constantly laughing at me for.

Well this time round, Idul-fitr would be a wee bit different from the past two years.
This time I have somebody new to share it with. I am all excited, yeah!
No, no... No matching Hari Raya outfits for me and significant other, but I am really looking forward to celebrating it with her, showing her wat Raya means in Imran's world.

World, in due time, you shall come to know who this wonderful, cute, sweet, and absolutely, stunningly, beautiful woman is.
To those few who actually have a clue, you don't actually need to be a rocket scientist to figure this out , do you?

till the next boring post,

Au revoir!

Hurrah!

Happy Birthday to me... *Jeng jeng jeng*
Happy Birthday to me... *Jeng jeng jeng*
Happy Birthday to imran... *Jeng jeng jeeeeng*
Happy Birthday to me... *Jeng jeng jeng*

Thanks for the wishes everybody. All are truly appreciated. (",)

Kekasih Gelapku

For that special someone,

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

Ku tahu ku takkan selalu ada untukmu
Disaat engkau merindukan diriku
Ku tahu ku takkan bisa memberikanmu waktu
Yang panjang dalam hidupku

Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku
Yang ku cari selama ini dalam hidupku
Dan hanya padamu ku berikan sisa cintaku
Yang panjang dalam hidupku...

-Ungu

Apologize

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait... You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say..
That it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance,
Take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say sorry like an angel,
Heavens not the thing for you,
But I'm afraid...
It's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'm holding your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground...

feewieet!

I think I know what I need...

I think, I need a new hobby. Something new and exciting, or picking up on something i left behind, err, 5 yrs ago?

I used to spend whole hours outdoors, but well, for a good chunk of time spent "outdoors" between 2002 till now, was spent in a 2.1m x 2.1m x 1.85m tent at various beach locations in eastern Singapore, namely East Coast and Pasir Ris Park. It was no doubt, exciting, for me and the then-significant other. Not one to disclose too much, I always enjoyed a good workout. *winks winks*

Been wanting to go kayaking... I used to kayak so often that water kinda became second nature, hence, the extremely contrasted darkened skin compared to the other people living in this house.

I know, I know! i could start travelling again... Yeah yeah, life pretty much stopped at 2002. Not anybody's fault though. I want to see the world, not that i haven't start to.

Sorry to waste your time reading this entry, but work has been totally hectic, mainly the reason I don't update my blog as much... the other small part is because... This one is a secret i'm not able to disclose yet. Anyway, where was i? Yeah yeah... work. Working in the shipping line is exhausting and unpredictable. There are ships full of cars coming ad going every single week.
Question: Don't people get tired of buying cars?

Well, without them I might not even have a job. Oh well.. With what I got going on with work and stuff, I dun think I have the time for a new hobby or go traveling...

Hehe...

Thanks for dropping by ya!

TGIF

Yeah yeah!

Last Friday was a TGIF day fer me. Finally got to go out with Fatin Sayang. Headed down to Vivocity for a real date. Do you know how long it has been since i went on a real date?
Yeah, that's how sad life is.

Well, first and foremost, 1408 was a stupid movie... Had dinner at Secret Recipe and Starbucks' Hazelnut Hot Chocolate is the works.

the puma and the rhino.. pretty uh? BLING BLING!

sweetness *beams*

posing maut with Ben n Jerry's



Last pic of the day, darling...

Huak huak, Imran had a blast!

too good for ya, huh?

Hello!!!


I just got home from the GB pit at east coast... It was more of a reunion for the GreenBench crew back from my TP days. Man... Nearly everyone was there. Should've been a chalet thingy-thingy. It would've been soo much more fun.

Nevertheless, with the GB core around, life is never a dull moment. Especially with Najip and Gang with their usual antics along with Yazid's s-oo-per loud "EH DIER UH!!" wah! kecoh beb!
Gonna upload pics soon...



Anyways, had breakfast at Mac all the way at Ang Mo Kio with Fatin Sayang after picking her up from work on an early Friday morning. After that, realising we had nowhere to go to, we decided window shopping at ang mo kio hub before realising that not even a quarter of the shops have opened... Gerek eh window shopping pagi2 buta.
some pics taken at her void deck.. alah... semer posing same je...




She refused earlier photos, hence the absence of more interesting ones.

I headed home cos Fatin Sayang had to have her beauty sleep... Met Mir at around 3+ after she finished work cos i needed some retail therapy.

Got a trim for my already thick crown and i got a brand new watch!!
OMG its a beauty lah.. A black beauty...



Yeah yeah...

till next time...

nenek kebayan...

Hello...
OMG i just have to put this up..

this is Nur Fatin aka Misq Kirei aka Fatin sayang...





This is Fatin sayang turned nenek kebayan


Thanks to my dearest sister... Nabilah..

since we're on this, i chanced upon this pic... funny...

sweet smiles, contagious laughters
suspecting looks and cautious stares
see how life misleads you
into disbelieving reality

funny how you looked at me
and how you scorn at the sight of me now
i can't tell you how to do it,
but, for god's sakes, do it right!

tipdrill....

I was just wondering....

If your right leg was Christmas, and your left is New Year's... Could you fit me in between the holidays?

To whoever that feels the heat after reading this...

I just realised that actually, time don't change a person. You are what you are. When u sense a change in you, you're actually just stuffing that humiliating and embarrassing glitch in yourself at the back of your conscience, hoping and praying that it'll never get exposed cos you don't wanna go back there or be back there. You are just covering those horns growing on your forehead assuming, in time, through time, people won't notice. The world is round, what goes around, comes around...

I'm sorry dear someone... Going by what I've heard, time or circumstance, or even people, hasn't changed who you are inside. That little imp on you, that little itch on your back, it hasn't gone away, has it?

Some things just don't change . Money makes you look at people you initially thought you despise. Cars make you like them even more... And i haven't gone to the bottles of liquors part. Re-assess yourself. Trust me darling, you need it.

Did you change? Have you changed?
Many around don't think so. Many still think its just an act to get you some security. Securities might just bite back at you one day.. Just like i did.

I hope you're reading this. It might just knock some sense into your thick, made-of-god-knows-what skull of yours. Good luck ya!

My Brown-eyed Dream

Don’t turn away, listen to me
To these words this heart has to say
All my life, I’ve been waiting
For this romance to come true

It’s getting harder to breathe
Your absence rob me of my sanity
Keeps me feeling homeless
Cos home is in your arms

I wait for night to come
And wish it'll never end
Cos I only feel you in my dreams
Awake, I yearn for your reigns
The double vision of you lingers
Are you really out there,
my brown-eyed dream?

Courage isn't the absence of fear. It is the presence of fear, yet, the will to go on.

In a whole lot of sense, we are all courageous.

Listen Listen!

Imran is a dull boy... Saturday night and he is at home, tucking into bed cos he got work tomorrow morning.

Help?

Misq Kirei is at work and that "Gendeng" still not following me to the pit. Follow k?

Help!

eh sorry la kakak!

Huak huak....
Ok ok, sorry Mir and everybody else... So, u wanted pictures? I give you pictures.

On National Day, after spending the whole day and the night before at Mir's, we went out to nowhere. We really had nothing to do and nowhere to go.
So we took the train, supposedly to meet Safrina at city hall... till Mir saw this dreadlocked, shaggy-looking abang2, with his Bob Marley El-famillia swagger.

" Im, I have to get his number," she said. Seeing how that abang2 guy was deep in his slumber in the train, we tailed him all the way... All the way to Chua Chu Kang thank you.

And so, on the way home we took a few photos.



This is Mira and Imran...




This is Mira through the lenses...



and this is Imran through the lenses....



Yeah yeah....

and I rented a Subaru Impreza for Yunus' sisters wedding during the weekend and abang2 also step hensem uh dgn kereta...



Mir, wait the rest i email to you uh k.... Nabilah is bugging me for the comp...

Fly Booty, Fly

aiyoh... dun laugh uh.

She looks like Kelly, coming from Destiny
She’s so amazing, she drives me crazy
Shakin’ her booty
Can't help but work her this way.
Could I get her a martini?
Could i get her to start talkin’?
Make her comfy in her own skin.

In goes the liquor,
She spills all her beans
Like how she likes her men,
What she wears to bed
And how she wanna get busy
The way she gives her head.

I wanna rock that body
Can't take my eyes off that booty
I wanna take her home with me
Get all freaky and give her all my lovin'.

Conqueror

So the very sorry ya to all you loyal readers...
Haha! like real only....

So far, its been fun at working at where i do, driving BMWs and Alfa Romeos...
woohhoo... driving in the BMW X4 and the Alfa Romeo Spider is the works. Not to mention the Porsche Carrera GT3. Huak Huak! Giler babi siak!

Had a wonderful Friday with Adibah + Yoonoos - Fatin - Nisha, although it started out shitty... But thanks ya Shida for tagging along. *winks winks*
and girls, we're going out next week!

Actually, i have nothing more to say.. dumb right?
till i return with more less-than-wonderful stories to tell you....

Signing out!

Big guys cry like babies, fall like tons of bricks. Hard, real hard.

OMG!

I love my new job. Imagine, driving a brand new left-hand driven Mitsubishi Lancer Evo 9!
Haha! Awesome...

okok.... altogether i drove 8 kind of cars...

1. 4-door Pajero
2. 2-door Pajero
3. Mistubishi Grandis
4. Evo 9 with Brembo disc brakes and sport rims.. wahaha!
5. Mistubishi Lancer 07
6. The new Mistubishi Lancer EX GT
7. Honda Stream RSZ 07
8. Toyota Camry 07

Once i went up the ramp and saw the Evo, there was no way i was gonna have anybody else drive the delicious red Evo go to anybody else. Sitting inside, i was trying my hardest to keep a straight face. But i can't help but plaster a wide beaming smile on my face. Sorry ah if i seem the jakon-ist but sial ah... Tkde chance siak nk naik ni mcm nye kerete kat luar. the moment i went on the yard, i was squealing like how Mir would. ngyahngyah!
And i get $1500 to do this? haha... Gerek per...

hope i get to drive the Merc with that 4.5 litre engine tonight.
***************************

Nisha's coming home tomorrow.. Yey! Just in case you're reading this Nisha...
AKU RINDU KAU LAH BODOH! haha... that felt a whole lotta good.


till whenever, ciaoz...

When the going gets tough, the tough fucks off!

Hihi....!!

Sorry long time no update ya.

Anyways, sometime last week had to send my brother to the hospital cos stupid idiot here tried to act hero and do bicycle kick playing sepak takraw. Because of that he fractured the right side of his pelvic bone. Idiot! Habis die kene tengking dgn mak aku. He got a painkiller jab but turned out he was allergic to it. Here's how he looked like within the first hour.

This is wat he looks like...




This is how he looked after that jab.



By the third hour, you couldn't even see his eyes and he had mucus drooling down his nose. Eww!!! Yeah.. I wanted to take more photos but he hid away even before i could take any. Idiot.

been doing nothing recently but yesterday I went down to Pasir freakin Panjang to go apply for a job and got it! hey i don't mind the distance from one Pasir to another but who would wanna pay me $1500 basic? huak huak....

After that Mira, Adibah and I went down to the airport to sent Nisha who's off to Penang, alone, to attend the World Music Festival. Kesian sey my lil strawberry. Wish i could follow you but i got work la sayang. And yah, I miss you too!

Adibah's friend, Fel, and later, Yunus, go with us lepak2 at this kedai kopi at Elias Mall. Amidst the talking, laughing, smoking and drinking coffee, Mir was busy looking at pictures in Adibah's phone. Skali she found two pics with ghostly presence. Here's one of em... (Err... Don't mind the Jim Beam bottle).. notice sombody standing behind us and the blow-up shows a face and fingers... EEE!!! Haha... Good Day!