my band...

ok... latest update on my band.. we got a new drummer right.. and he's hitting the right notes with our songs. "Again" is even becoming an instant humming hit with his hardcore brothers and other non-believers.

well...

From left: Alip - Drums
Faril - Bass
Ipan - Guitar
Imran - Vocals
Pet - Guitar

sheez...

See... Told ya I'll attract attention with the previous post. Okok... Lemme get this straight, for the benefit of those people who are a little bit slower than the rest.

I have a girlfriend now. I'm not missing Diy the girlfriend or the ex... but only as the friend. That is all there is to that. So yeah..

peace.. hahaha...

a letter to an old friend

To an old friend,

I wrote this letter hundreds of times in my head only to eventually throw this idea out of the window. I was worried that this could make you hate me even more.
But..

"Maybe this decision was a mistake
You probably don't care what I have to say
Its been heavy on my mind for months now
Guess I'm tryna clear some mental space."

Its been awhile since I last heard your voice calling, saying out my name. I'm saying this only as somebody who was the closest human being by your side for a good number of years. Is it really fair that at some point of time you decided to hate me?

If you're reading this, I'm not wishing you'd call me. I'm not wishing anymore than your good health and happiness... its just... Again, i guess I'm just tryna clear some mental space. Somehow, i feel that if you saw me on the streets, you'd just pass me by and pretend to not know me at all.
The question is, why have we come to such a state? Did you have to try to hate me to get away, to the point of actually hating me?

This time around, I'm not reminiscing of memories, smiling alone of happier times, but its just that somehow along with all those years, you turned to my bestest friend.. and to just lose you, THE friend, in a matter of days, seemed disastrous.

"I just wonder, do you ever think of me.. anymore, do you?"

Sometimes i do wonder, do i ever cross your mind? Not anything more than just the personal state of being I'm in. I guess its one of the few thousand questions going through my head i have about you...

In case you're still reading this, I'm not here to tell you i miss you. Miss you like the sun misses the flower, the flowers in the depth of winter bullshit... But its more of I miss the person, the laughter, the eyes, and the smile of the friend they call Diy.

Yes its you. However knowing you, I have to stress, this is not about my romanticized attachment I had towards you. I buried it with all the years. Again, I guest I just needed to clear some mental space.

"I swear I'm not tryna start no trouble, tell you fiance he can relax."

There's no need to unleash your boyfriend on me. There's nothing he has to be afraid of. I'm not desperately trying to catch your attention wishing you'd call me this very second. Don't you think this is a much too foolish thing for someone to do, even for an exceptionally foolish person like me?

I'm gonna be angering a lot of people with this letter, having more questioning my intentions. But my intentions are as clear as the words I write here.

Time and again, I wish only for your good health and happiness. And I do hope you're in that state right now.

Till I see that forever warm smile and ever bright eyes on the streets, you take care, friend.

love,
Me.

The Blinding Dark

My arms spread wide
My fingers yearn for touch
The black blinds me
This journey through the dark

The echoes hit me back
My shouts go even deeper
The silence binds me
The loudness I crave further

Show me the light
This tunnel seem endless
For I am a slave to the dark...
...A slave to the dark.

Somebody please save me
Please take me away
How long till I can see
Till the dark fades away

in the end

So yeah.. Yesterday meant the end of part 1 of my SATS arrival/departure course...

Its has been a joy being in class with these batch of people but cliched as it might sound, everything has its end.

For example, I found a really good friend in Lydia that most people think we're together. I have great lunching partners with Lydia, Anne, Faridah, Hudah and last, not the least but surely the cutest, Humairah. Yeah... But i'm not saying that the rest isn't at all fun. Good Luck yeah guys...

I'll see you people around.

a guy, a whole lotta girls and a very small space

I promised photos, i give you photos...

Imran and the girls.. (from front: humaira, huda, endah, priya, eetheng, faridah, siti, lydia& me!



The girls deciding how to pose.



Imran & Lydia



the 2 chilli padis... humaira and huda



Sham & me goofing around



Bonding with the reflections



The 3 Divas



Lunch Break

Yeah yeah.. and so this is how it is at work..

horseballs and brinjols

goozness! Its the 9th already...

Lotsa things happened in within the first 9 days of April... Seriously.

I started work with SATS officially on the 1st. Got great batch-mates. Cool people, or might i say chicks cos there's only two guys among 24 girls. Oh come on... Don't judge me like that.

Got orientated around the airport (yeah, like i needed some.. huak huak) and got to know my new colleagues.
AND I LOST MY ZIPPO!!! shit...!

Ok ok...

From then till now I've been attending classes, religiously i might add, at Cargo Complex. Boring, but still, essential.
And why am i up so early today? Cos I'm up learning for a test today. Yeah...
Do you know how long has it been since I sat for any freaking test? Eons boys and girls, Eons...

And yeah before i forget, BAND UPDATE!

my band just inducted this kick-ass drummer Ipan got hold of from some forum over the Internet. Oh my, can he play, even up to a point where we thought he was too good for us. But heck, we a full band now.

Now we gotta find a nice-sounding name.. help?


yeah yeah...
Gonna be posting pics of my new colleagues soon. (tomorrow in fact if I'm not too lazy. hurhur..)

till then, signing off!